another go round?

i know i've said i will give sex up, then i won't, then i'm attempting it again only to be foiled by a good looking man in a pinstriped button up. but i'm going to really and truly do this of my own accord: give up sexual relations, not including masturbation, for an entire year-- barring only blue eyes-- beginning after my birthday. so an entire year, and my birthday pressie next year can be as much cock as i can handle.

now i know you're not having too much faith in me since i've got a ready made escape clause built in, but chances are i won't see blue eyes [quick background: first boyfriend/kiss/long distance relationship/relationshit i totally fucked up, great friend, person i owe my virginity to] until nearly the end of this any how, and frankly we've got so much background between us this should have happened years ago.

but as to why i think this will work this time, i feel like i'm in no shape for a relationshit so there won't be any external pressure to give the nookie, and i'm slowing down in my wanking several times a day so i think this is a good progression. also, i'm cutting waay back on partying, what with getting caught up at uni and all. listen, i know temptation will be abound, but nothing worth having isn't worth waiting for, yeah?

so i've got roughly 5 days to get it in and get it good so i've got something to tide me over for the next year. i swear if my last hook up before my celibacy kicks in is awful, i'm gonna start knocking heads.